I’ve been thinking a lot recently. About everything. About how my life is a continuous roller coaster of ups and downs and how much I’ve changed over the years.
Some people ask me how I stay positive. The answer is, I don’t, not really.
I have days when I just lie in bed all day staring at the ceiling and feeling utterly exhausted but not having the energy to do anything about it. On these days, I lie there feeling guilty (why didn’t you spend your day-off with your grand dad who needs you), angry (at myself, mostly, for not being more pro-active about fixing everything that’s not going right in my life), petulant (why me, God) and then guilty again (Stupid girl, you already have life so much better than everyone else).
So yes, I’m not a positive person. But I have been trying very hard to look on the bright side of things, and here’s how I do it. There’s just one simple rule.
Count your blessings.
It immediately puts everything into perspective, from the most ridiculous #firstworldproblems (I don’t have a bag that matches my dress today) to the practical (We’ve got barely anything left after paying the bills this month) and the emotional (I wish I had my family here to help me with my grand dad)
After applying the rule, this is how I react in response to the three scenarios above.
1) I may not have a bag which matches this particular dress, but I have more than one bag for every day of the week, and I’m not starving to own them.
2) I’m broke after paying my bills because I bought at least 3 nice dresses. And if they aren’t making me as happy as my lack of $$ is making me depressed, don’t do it again next month. At least you still have a paycheck coming in next month, and a nice one.
3) I have incredibly helpful aunts and in-laws who are there for me when my family is not around – which is really much more than a girl could ask for.
This rule doesn’t always work, but it always makes me guilty and often galvanizes me into action, which is always a good thing – Depression is too easy when you have a soft and comfortable bed.
Will blog when I’m feeling better